I have spoken against the Creator,
the love of my life, the maker of my heart, the knitter of my soul.
I have allowed my problems to have a greater hold of my thoughts, my emotions, and my actions than they should. I have danced with fear and listened to its many whispers about what I am incapable of doing and, even more devastatingly, what He is incapable of doing.
Yes, I have ignored what I know to be truth in the attempt to make sense of all the things I can’t control. I have ignored his word and the promptings of Proverbs 3:5 (“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding…). Yes, I traded His truth for my own crude lies.
But enough of that. He knows the depth of my sin.
I will leave Elihu’s remarks to Job here:
But it is wrong to say God doesn’t listen, to say the Almighty isn’t concerned.
Wrong. So deeply wrong.